Can I remember what I am fighting for?
I can’t
Can I explain why my heart is still beating?
I can’t
Then why am I still alive?
Why?
Is it to see what the future holds?
Is it to hear the story until the end?
Is it to know what I am fighting for?
Is it to feel what I never felt before?
I don’t know, I’ll never know
What I am living for
But I know that I don’t have something to die for
What a reason to live.
I think everyone goes through this mindset at least once in their lives. The depression is pretty unbearable when one encounters this and worse when you can’t find the answer within yourself. I remember the time I went through it myself and how even more sad I felt when I came to the realization that so many people out there are suffering with lives in worse conditions and I remember feeling so guilty. It took a while for me to realize that I am only human and I am entitled to my emotions and it’s important to deal with them and work through them. As long as I’m not hurting others or myself, any resolution I can find to get me through the dark times is a good thing. This was when I was really into writing and I poured a lot of my emotions on paper. I must say though personally it was helping others and being around those that made me feel happy is what helped me get through those dark times. This was a great poem that I know many can relate to.